Adequate.

So I have this big deal of a decision to make in the next few days. I am not a person that is easily stressed, so this past week has been a little foreign to me. And as always, when in "distress" you seem to go to the Lord more.
So there I am 1:30ish in the am, laying in bed, I decide to consult with God. So I lay there praying that typical prayer, "thanks for the day, blah...I pray for so and so and for this and that." We all do it sometimes, fall into the habitual prayer the old "fall back prayer," but anyways I was praying and truly meaning what I was saying, and I prayed specifically for God to not let me worry about feeling adequate, because I know I am... And then God slapped me and said what makes you think you are adequate, he practically yelled at me and told me I wasn't even close to being adequate, I was actually very INadequate.
As I laid in my bed I grew even more restless, and being confused and unable to sleep. I made a the decision to get back out of bed and watch some terrible scary movie that was bound to be on at almost 2 in the am on the Sci-Fi channel.
As I got up my mind began to race, "am I really not adequate?" Nope. It finally was clicking. I'm not adequate in the least, and sorry to bust your bubble (the one person that reads this) neither are you. Now, you may be good at something, have natural talent or just have worked so hard at something that you are now skilled in that one thing. But none the less, you are still not adequate.
The only thing that makes us adequate is Christ. Jesus' sacrifice was made so that we would become adequate. What is crazy is that the things we do, on this earth to become adequate at (fill in the blank), don't work at all for us later. We can work all our lives to become adequate in Gods eyes but it just won't happen, and we aren't born with it, like a natural talent! Its a crazy huge gift!
What's great is that the more we relize that we are inadequte without Jesus, the more we will strive to be like Him, which in turn makes us more adequate. So relizing your inadequacy equals being more adequate. I know pretty mind boggling, all at 2 in the morning.