content, shmantent

So i was just reading over some of the stuff i just wrote on the previous thing, and saw the word content. Content. What in the heck is content? I know it has to be different for every person cause some peoples wants and needs are completely opposite then the next person. So what is the basis or bottom line of contentment, or being content?
"Being satisfied with a certain level of achievement, and not wishing for any more....Satisfied" This is what my computers dictionary says. Being satisfied is a huge deal to us as humans. We strive to be satisfied in everything. Food, entertainment, work, you name it and we are trying to please ourselves, so we can be satisfied.

There was a time last year where i saw or felt that i had no contentment. Everyday i felt more and more complacent in what i was doing. It makes me think of that Augustanna song, where it says she needs to get out of California, shes tired of the weather, needs a sunrise and not a sunset, wants to get a lover and fly to spain, and so on. This song is the billboard for not being content. "i need this, i need that," they are doing all this stuff to try to satisfy some hunger that they cant describe. For me it took breaking up with a girl i loved, because i thought she was bad for me, and looking at jobs around the world where i could "start over." ehhh wrong.

I then realized that i had begun to wander farther and farther away from my relationship with God. I think this is the reason for me struggling with not being content. Im not sure who would be less content a person that has never experienced Gods grace, or someone who has and has let their relationship just kind of fade. There is a yearning, a desire in everyone of us to have a relationship with God. And if we let this go, then complacency just jumps in. You can try to fill it with anything else, a girl or a guy, drinking, sex with that girl or guy, a job, or even friends, and it works. for about 2 minutes. Then reality sets in and your back to where you started, more then likely a few steps back from where you were. But once you let go of everything, something happens, and you are fully relying on God to make the moves in your life, stress free. Well as close as we can get. Because there is always going to be that constant struggle for us to take back our life, and not just hand it over.

Once we do give our life over to God and i am not referring to that one time you knelt down in front of some church and asked God to come be a part of your life, but that time when you realized you were nothing without him, and that you couldn't really do anything that is worth while without Him taking the reigns. So you give it all to Him, everything, your hopes your dreams, this sounds like a bad thing but its what we were made for! Anyways, once we do give our life over to Him we are content, but sorry to burst your bubble, God doesnt want that. Making God your TRUE God will definitely lead you to overall contentment, but God doesnt want you to be satisfied. He wants you to keep chasing after Him.

So yes true contentment is God, but we should not become content in our prayer life, our thought life, our physical life (sexually and even physical well being) and even with your work life. Even though work is work, we should try to be that person that approaches it with joy. The definition of contentment doesnt even sound like a good thing when we apply it to our lives this way! We should never stop because we think we are satisfied, and dont wish for anymore. So really contentment is overrated. God brings contentment, and then should bring discontentment. Don't sit back and try to be content, instead strive for discontentment concerning your life with God.